Sunday, December 11, 2005

Feel like just writing something ...

I've found out, you can never really forget a person. It doesnt happen just like that. No matter what you do, once a person enters and changes your life, you won't forget. So now there's a gap, and also probably the reason why I'm punching keys: Because I've no one to write to now. This month I realised, I had alot of dreams. (Alas, all in the comfort of Keat Hong Camp .. haha.) 5 mnts since everything happened. Only told PL about it yesterday ...

Read in the Straits Times or NewPaper, that bloggers usually discuss their lunch routine. Hope I'm not susceptible to that ... Who gives a damn whether you went to Heerens to buy some CD or .. I don't consider myself a blogger ... I've this notion that a blogger means: "Someone who posts something without using their brain with the intent to piss some people/organisation, which results in a fine". No no no, I'm not a blogger.

Quite excited in meeting my new section. Hopefully won't screw things up, which happens like usually. In the army that is. Maybe I'm not cut up to be a soldier. Haha .. maybe I'm just acting stupid. Hey .. maybe I'm not acting. Haha.

Just completed Lectures 0 thru 2 of the Computer Prog methologies ... hope it serves as a head start for someone slow like me.

Thinking about St John:

The people in St John, to me, are like family. I'll always get this warm hearty feeling whenever I'm back. Its always good to see some familiar faces. I think many people feel that way too, but then, its a double edged sword. (For those feeling a slight tinge of guilt, read on)

We always tell our instructors not to get over friendly with trainees, juniors, subordinates. But I think many would find it imposible to do.

Thing is, I find it a completely natural and easy thing to accomplish. But then upon close reflection, I found that sometimes telling and even showing people how to do things "right" still doesnt drive the message across. So I think the main problem is simply (me) getting people to do things MY way.

I've always been experimenting with different methods to deal with people. Methods often deemed undesirable. That being said, I've always give a bad first impression .. ha. One of my favourites is this: "Treat your suboridinates like a kite. Hold on to them, let them fly. But when they fly to high, reel them in a little" Although I'm uncomforatble with the word "subordinate", but I guess you get the general idea.

Nothing really changes.

I've contemplated what would PHS SJAB be with/without me. I came to conclude it wouldnt matter. We adapt, dont we. After 5 mnths, I've learnt to adapt. Or maybe not.

I'm puzzled why many of us worry about the most minute of problems. Unless it a big problem (however you defind "big"), I would really wish for them to deal it themselves. How would they learn?

Think of it this way: Life is one BIG Sit Test. U get the basic rules, you play the game with whatever materials you have. Minimal guidance. Same with life, you don't hold their hands all the way. Its good to sit back and watch. (eg: SNCO, JNCO watever -CO, its no kick. Worry for #$^&!)

For those few reading, if you can comprehend, good for you. you can get angry with me, but the only reason you guys would be angry it because wat I said struck a chord with your concience.

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Something's missing in my life, I feel. I guess this is what happens when its late, you're t ired, have too much on your mind, have a nice sad love song playing, when the end of the year draws near, miss certain people around you, and worry.

Posted by Unknown at 12/11/2005 01:01:00 am